Well the "angry at parents" thing mostly has to do with the fact that I am at the age where I am supposed live alone and because I want to do things alone they always have to "hover" over everything I do and not give me any "alone" time. Makes me second guess myself a lot with everything which in turn makes me not mature as quickly as my peers. Second guessing makes me end up idle and unsure of what I really want. In other words I am tired of them being "helicopter parents". I'd rather make mistakes and learn because the only way I really learn is through experience, just because one thing doesnt work for someone doesnt mean it wont work for me. I'd rather not talk about my personal issues on a public forum though, cause then the world can see it.
Ulrich, although I am new here, maybe I can shed some light as well. I'm 30, and it wasn't that long ago I was in a similar predicament as you. My solution:
I denied all offers to scholarship (only part I half regret)
I enlisted
I left a letter on the kitchen counter
first time in my life my Dad hugged me, and one of the few times he said he was proud of me was after my graduation from bootcamp. "You're your own man now, your decisions, your life. I'm proud of you."
not too long after, far too short in my beliefs of what should/could have been, I was injured and discharged. I moved in with my Uncle. No one in my family knows the truth of my injuries. I'm my own man, and my own keeper. I went to school, transferred to a university out of state and now live six hours away.
best advice I can give you, your parents are a priceless asset unless they truly deserve to be in jail. You may not believe it now, but not a day goes by now, when I watch my girlfriend's two-year-old, that I don't look back on my father's teachings and "someday, you'll thank me" comes up. I call him or my mom, and I thank them.
YIS
B. Patricius